snowy_peach

letting go

2008-07-30T02:46:00.001+08:00

let it go,
unclasp that fist,
release that pain
that has been holding back
your tears, your fears...

let it fly,
fly away together
with the wind,
drain away together
with the rain
the tears, the fears...

let it show,
the truth, the lies,
hiding behind those
ugly, black curtains
of tears, of fears...

let it out,
loudly on the highest mountain,
screaming with the loud waves
that drown
those tears, those fears...

away, away... forever...

where do we stand?

2008-07-27T20:03:00.003+08:00

life's too short to dwell on our mistakes... but to learn from them... sadly, how many of us realise this truth? we put importance on the things that we presume is of priority but we forget the consequences that lies after that... do we know what we are really after, what we really want in life?

memories are thoughts left as rememberance... but sometimes the memories haunt us... not only in our dreams but in reality as well... i keep telling people that the past is the past... but why can't i tell myself the same thing? it's true that it's easier said than done... sooooo much easier... but sometimes, we do understand the receivers' thoughts and situation... it's that time when we feel the loniliest in this world, that no one understands us at all that we end up doing the things we regret the most... it's the time when we needed somebody, anybody the most, that nobody has the time to spare for us... sometimes, it's really about the timing... time, time which is merely an intangible something, that if we place value upon, becomes the highest influence but if ignored, becomes the nothing... the implication is similar on everything in our life...

it's all about our perception, our assumptions, our priorities, our knowledge, our stands, our beliefs, our rights, our fights, our losses, our exposure and our stubborness...

the mask of life

2008-07-14T20:33:00.013+08:00

do we ever know what we want in life? i've always thought i knew, knew for certain, the path that i see in front of me, the path that i decide to walk, without hesitation... now, i realise that i know nothing in life that is certain...

is it true that with passion and that burning fire inside your heart, your desire to pursue that certain something in life will be ignited? will continue burning until you are satisfied with your findings... i can no longer feel that passion, that burning fire since a few years back... i sit back, thinking what had gone wrong...

is it true that nothing in life changes? that it's only our perception on things changes? everything stays the same, each story, each personality... it's only when we start viewing things from a different angle, different eye, that we start to grip the reasons, the understanding, the meaning of each story... no matter how many times you look at it, at different angles, the story changes drastically... you begin to understand why that person did what they had to do, why the things that happened happened the way it did...

i guess there's more to life than there is... there's always a reason for everything but sometimes no reason is needed if you truly understand the situation...

can we accept the truth, the reality when it hits us hard, smacks right back at us, the truth that we have been searching for but can never admit it and in the end, look for an explanation to avoid accepting the truth and at the end of it, just swallowing the only thing that we allow, the sheet of lies masking the truth... if you think you are not one of these people, think again, think hard and tell me that you are not guilty of this sin...

NOOOO!!!!!

2007-10-05T20:48:00.000+08:00

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wanna go back to penang!!! my comfortable crib!!! nooooo! why?!!!! *sniffs* http://www.plusliner.com/seat_avail-n.asp

i don't want to be stuck in kl anymore! i miss penang! i wanna stroll on the beach! feel the waves! touch the breeze! without pollution! bluech! i've already started packing! i wanna go back! i've already been drenched with misery for the past fortnight, i just wanna head back home!!!

digusting roaches!

2007-10-05T00:20:00.000+08:00

damn! damn! damn! damn! damn!

i felt a soft brush beside my calf as i was peacefully eating my toast and jam... i turned to look... and totally freaked out~!

there was this extremely HUGE cockroach CRAWLING right beside me! argh! ewww! i took my shieldtox and started aiming for it! so guess what? instead of running on the floor or scurrying away to whatever hole there is or crawl out the window but NO, where did it decide to go?

it headed towards my bed and started jogging around my bed, then my pillow, then my smaller pillow then my bolster, then my pillow again and then all over my bed despite the fact that i've been covering it with whitish toxic vapour... and then, finally it decided to stay at one place... in between my bolster and pillow, what a strategic place!

and after all the minutes of spraying, dirtying my bed, covering it with goodness knows what bacteria, it's still moving, squirming on MY bedsheet! argh! it's like all the roaches have immunity against all insect sprays! i had no choice but to PICK IT UP (well i can't use the dustpan now can i? since it's on my bed! gah!) and threw it into my dustbin and spray it some more! and guess what? after all this, it's still squirming away!!! and it's all oily and stuff d...

now, TWO days before heading back to beautiful penang, i had to wash everything! and let it collect to dust for three months... and talking about three months, i have started packing (note started) and i'm having a headache already...

one violin case, one trolley bag, one bag pack and i still need to carry my hammys and turtys back! how how how? soooooo many things! mum was supposed to come pick me up, but something turned up... so changed of plans...

i just can't wait to get back!!! hehehe yippee!!!

still in kl

2007-10-01T00:30:00.000+08:00

finals are finally over but then again, it might still not be over... it's that annoying time awaiting your results... making you toss and turn in your sleep when you know that doomsday has arrived... and it's even worse when the pre-results comes out s-l-0-w-l-y, one by one... and then the actual results later on... i say, it's just a way the university tortures your soul...

and if you don't have that huge PASS in your pre-results, you have to sit for a supplementary paper and get tortured all over again... and if you do, you still get torture for waiting for the actual results... so, who says we have a choice?

*sigh* i'm still stuck in miserable kl... everything in kl involves forking out huge amounts of bills... i miss penang!!! i can't wait to go back, relax on the beach, getting tanned, hiking... heck, there's so many things you can do in penang for free... life's good over there...

i have around two weeks before i start work... i wonder how it will be... hope i'll learn loads of interesting stuff... all i know is i'm working for experience and in shifts... do you think there might be chances that i'll get to see colourful turds or blue blood or weird looking cells under the microscope?? lolz

okay, i'm writting crap d... sorry, was on the phone with mum for quite some time and i lost my train of thoughts... =P

will continue this another day... eye hurts from too much internet access... gotta savour it while i still have it!

ps i'm bored!

sigh

2007-09-27T16:22:00.000+08:00

stupidity reigns supreme!

absence

2007-09-21T00:44:00.000+08:00

at j's party

at sky bar

still there... =)

too bummed around to write my blog and i think i've given up trying to understand css... yes, so sue me if i'm not a geek... anyways, just to let you guys know, due to my fickle-mindedness, i might alternate between

http://sylphshuying.multiply.com/ and http://www.snowypeach.blogspot.com/

though both may look dead, i assure you that i will update both of it SOON... well, hmmm, come to think of it, add a gazzilion "o"s in between...

gonna head back to my beautiful island in a week's time... wanted to work in tioman (or jerejak but mum wouldn't hear of it) so i guess i'll be handling the weekend market until my actual industrial training in gribbles start... in case you guys are wondering, the weekend market is where i help my friend sell hand-made accessories... i haven't hand-made any for ages since i have neither the tools, crystals, wires nor time... so hopefully, by the time i get back to penang, i'm well-rested and able to create some nice stuffs...

i'm pretty much drained out, exhausted and stressed to the very max... not to mention, the sleep that i've been getting (if you count it sleep at all) are the unconciousness that i've suffered in between my studying period... yeah yeah, i still can't kick that old habit of mine and i'm still burning the midnight oil despite the consequences that have befallen upon me... i'm praying that my brains will have enough folds to support the massive information i'm cramming inside until well, until i don't need it, i guess... lolz

anyways, i can't wait to get back to penang!!! so many things to do... yet so little time!!! i longed for my comfortable bed, my sweet pampering sessions, my chit-chats with my darling amah, to meet up with bren, ahhh the list is endless... 3 months is simply not enough!!!

ooohhh! i can't wait to get back and drag my xmas tree, shower it with fake snows and deco it to the MAX!!! woo hoooo!!!

oh, and i really wanna visit kuantan during new year again!!! i simply love the beaches there... and no, i'm not betraying my beautiful island... i still love both places... =) sweet memories too!

bah, if i survive till then... apparently, from the previous batch that went to training in gribbles, i was forewarn by my internal advisor that i work in shifts and i might have to work on sundays... and the fact that i can't find a place in penang makes it even more enchanting since i have to wake up like two hours plus plus earlier to make up for the travelling time and not get caught in the traffic jam...

but, i guess besides that, life is beautiful...

p/s i need to start listing down the things i do... actually i've already done that... just that i keep losing the list (ooops)... hopefully this time, i'll get more than half of the things listed done... will post it up when i get to do it...

pp/s i just remembered... about that soooooooooon thingy... i'm heading back to penang... and i don't have internet access over there... if you do happen to see me online, it'll probably be some miracle... so the next update will be in three months time... most probably after new year!!! hahaha

so... if i'm not online, here's to an be-early,

happy hari raya puasa!

happy (this is the part where i accidentally dropped my pot-pourri down from my window... thank goodness it didn't smashed on the car... *sniff* it broken to pieces... *sniffs*)

happy deepavali!

happy christmas!

and a happy new year!!!

back

2007-08-25T01:58:00.000+08:00

as most of you may have noticed (and most of you, informed about my current whereabouts), i have seemed to disappear and dedicated my time in another blog... you may call me unfaithful but there were just too many things i love about multiply that were simply too irresistible to me and tempation always almost win...

however, i have decided to make an appearance back at my faithful old blogspot... there are still loads of things that were too attached to me to just leave it abandoned... i could list down the pros and cons of multiply vs blogspot... but i'm not in the mood to do so, at the moment...

it has been a long exhausting day... spent the entire day in uni, starting off the day with a gleefully screwed up genetics test... by the time i reach home, it was nearly seven in the evening... i cleaned the whole apartment, cooked dinner, cleaned my children's home sweet homes and that leaves me to now... i'm actually not that tired... just plain b.o.r.e.d... i shall not repeat what i've rambled on in my other blog... it would be redundant and repetitive... i wanted to get some rest... but somehow, one lil irritating fly has managed to make a world tour from the kitchen into my private crib...

so, again, what am i doing here? i suddenly have the urge to go for a drink and dance till my feet hurts but then again, since it's the exam period, nobody has the mood to do anything crazy with me except study... i miss the day when i had the urge to eat ice-cream in the middle of the night and just wear my pjs, stroll along the peaceful street and have my sweet, cold, ice-cream...

dang! NOW i feel like having an ice-cream...

mentally stressed

2007-03-20T22:54:00.000+08:00

*sighhhhh* i am again doing last minute assignment...why am i stuck in these four walls of procrastination? i'm mentally exhausted... the only time i remembered studying malay was in form five and that was like eons ago!!! i have to base my part on teori utilitatianisme, egosime, kemoralan sosial and eksistensialisme... yeah, i know... you are probably thinking what -isme, what eksisten... i've to think, phrase a sentence out, translate it out (all mentally done) before typing it out then reading the sentence again to see whether it made any sense... plus, i was informed only yesterday that there is a MINIMUM page for my part : 12 freaking pages!!!

did a spontaneous presentation today...lolz i didn't even know what the heck i was rambling about in front there...apparently, according to my lecturer, i would adapt to changing environmentS easily, based on my outlook and way of presentation... lolz i don't know whether to agree with him... it depends on the situation i guess... lolz *shrugs* anyways, he probably knew i was just putting everything together right there and then... didn't comment much on what i was saying so i probably said things that made sense... *shrugs* thank goodness it was an informal presentation...

it's 11pm and all i had since i woke up was 3 ferrero rocher...

tomorrow, i have to prepare myself to receive my endocrinology mid-term results...
*the one with insane numbers of questions to be completed within an hour*

and tomorrow, i only have one miserable one hour lecture from the one miserable lecturer (above)... and violin lesson at 3 plus which i might just skip... *shrugs*

was planning to go ice-skating tomorrow but i guess, looking at the circumstances, i might have to postpone it... *sigh* been postponing it for a year plus already...why does sunway pyramid has to be sooooooo damn far?

the only entertainment i had since yesterday was a boy carrying a bagpack while doing his presentation in front of his coursemates and lecturer...hmmm perhaps it was about a bagpack??? lolz and that was yesterday...

i've only managed to write 4 pages so far....... HELP!!!

the heaven weekend

2007-03-18T23:33:00.000+08:00

don't even know where to start... lolz... okay, let me try to recall last week's events... it seems sooooo long ago... and i was talking to mun kiat over dinner just now only to realise that saturday was yesterday... gosh!

hahaha *flashback* all i recall is that i had a microbiology assignment on ilya metchnikoff (one of the guys that i'm learning to respect...okay, i'll talk bout him in another blogging session lolz) and principle of nutritions (pon) mid-term on friday... started doing my assignment at 6pm (?) lolz (was watching the latest episode of house and a little catching up on heroes... =P) dwelled here and there... contributed my part in cooking...ate and chit-chat (what was i thinking with time not on my side?! typical old me... lolz) then continued until about 4am!!! (plus printing...had to go hunt for A4 papers, ran out of them...lolz) and then, chat for awhile before lying on my bed trying to study nonsensical stuff in preparation for my pon mid-term...fell asleep...woke up in time for 9am lecture (which i think was an amazing achievement! heck, i don't even wake up in time for my 10.30am class! ooops) went to class...listened while studying...then, went to the exam at 11am...i think i flunked it...damn! (i mean hello, how would i know what's the percentage the average daily nutrient intake level that meets the needs of all healthy people in a particular life stage and gender goal?! the answer, by the way, is 97-98%, which i screwed up) and loads of crappy stuff...urgh! finished before 12pm...was supposed to have lab class at 2...so, 2 hours to waste away...schiesse! i went to the music room only to realise that the piano's booked all the way till 3pm...darn! then, hanged around with cj and ynie, listening to them playing the "ku-zheng", then finally when reality finally reached my brain that there's absolutely no way i'm gonna get my fingers on the piano before 2pm, i headed over to the library only to be told that the computer system is down...so i ended up reserving three books...what else could go wrong?! then, had lunch...miserable chicken rice and can drink...before heading to the lab...only to be told that the culture's NOT READY so class is cancelled!!! argh!!! good that i can go back earlier but i just threw away my two hours for nothing...i could have taken an earlier bus back to penang!!!

so... fine, i rush to catch the uni bus, which luckily was still there...met ynie who's a sweetheart... she offered to carry my lab coat and "kiam hu" back so that i don't need to drag them all the way to pg!!! yippee! THANKS YNIE!!! you're an angel! =) lighter bag... so there i was on the way to the bus station with only my pink-sylph bag!!! *big wide grin* the lightest baggage i've ever carried back! =P then had my another coursemate to accompany me all the way, in the lrt, to masjid jamek, where i transit to star lrt to get to pudu...went there only to realise, to my utter horror, no more tickets available!!! konsortium had a 4pm bus...i arrived at the bus station at 5mins to 3...i was so impatient to get my body and soul onto the bus that i actually rejected the offer and took up the bus that was beside me scheduled for 3.15pm departure...what on earth was i thinking?! i was shocked when she told me i had to pay 30bucks!!! the normal ticket's only 27!!! what a leech! she mumbled something about you know la, it's school holidays now, so you know la, banyak orang, you know la, then, gave me that look, then said you know la (again!) i tried to negotiate with her then just gave up cause i was too impatient to just get my feet on penang grounds... gave her the money and went to wait... damn, it was scary and freaky... i began to regret... 3pm came and gone... 3.15pm came and gone... 3.30 came... then, i met this really sweet and gorgeous malay gurl and we stuck to each other...scared to the core that we were being cheated and afraid that we would be kidnapped to goodness-knows-where!!! after awhile, we were "escorted" to another part of the bus station...stood there like idiots waiting for the non-existent bus...then, after they were satisfied that we made the statement that we were a bunch of idiots standing in the middle of nowhere desperately calling out for attention, they made us walk all the way OUT of the bus station only to stand (again!) by the side of the road, looking like pathetic idiots under the rain! waited there till 4pm then, satisfied that we are drizzled with poluted water, we had to cross the killer road before pushing and tugging our way into the bus... (free seating and believe if you have seen the condition of the bus, you would squeeze and tug as well to get places at the front part of the bus... not that i need to since i was petite i just stood there and thanks to their pushing, i ended up in front of the steps without acting like a barbarian since they helped me there instead of helping themselves... lolz) ahhh! finally in the bus! was supposed to sit together with the malay gurl but since i found a single seat, i saved one in front of me for her... =) then, we waited AGAIN for goodness-knows-what before the journey actually started... i gave up looking at the time... i knew i would be dishearten at the delay... after being satisfied that they (the bus driver and his companion) waited for air, they finally started the journey... *psst, the chair was extremly comfortable despite the horrendous surrounding... lolz i called my mum to inform her... she panicked more than i did! hahaha she was like, why didn't you buy konsortium, how did i end up in that bus, is it safe and all those motherly question, (thank goodness my amah didn't know, i think i'll get calls every five seconds or so) then she said, are you sure the bus won't break down or sth? i said (trying to be convincing enough) no, it won't... don't worry... 10-15 mins later, guess what? the engine started spluttering like it drank too much water... HELP!!! schiesse! i was like thinking... mum, why did you have to say that?!? although i know she has nothing to do with it... thank goodness after (15-30mins) it started making heavenly engine sounds... *phewwww*

journey then continued... i was sooooo bored that i actually took out my pon notes to flip through and it did what all notes are supposed to do...i fell into sweet but scared dreams... afraid that i would wake up in thailand or sth... loz... the next moment i opened my eyes, my notes were scattered on the floor underneath my seat... and i was at this really ulu place... eeeek! then i saw the universal sign for girls and guys... okay... no way i'm going down...then i realised schiesse! i'm the only one in the bus... okay...maybe going down is a good idea after all... the malay gurl was waiting for me outside... we ended up buying drinks and kaya pau...continued our journey after more than 30mins break.... apparently this guy actually paid the toll to go to this particular rest place...i stayed awake for a moment or two to make sure we were actually on the real NSE before i went to dreamland... woke up after the moon rised...decided that i had enough scary dreams and should start noticing where the bus is heading... mum called every now and then till my hp ran outta batt...well, my batt was like 2 bars anyways... so, she didn't get to call much anyways... luckily, i managed to make arrangements to meet her near the juru toll instead of sg nibong bus terminal in penang before the battery went flat...

okay... i looked... and looked... and look... YAY! after eons, i finally saw the toll! man, was i glad! went down the bus, schiesse! where's my mum? why is my hp dead? where's the public phone? okay, stay calm, toll toll, hmmm... toll should have public phones... walked a bit and bingo!!! called mum and she told me that she's already here? WHERE?! shell...what shell? i started to panic...a little, i thought i went down at the wrong stop or sth... then, i was like stay calm....and open your already tired eyes...could barely see the shell sign (has yet to be completed so no lights or whatsoever life-form) in the dark....i was like ok fine, let's just walk and then decide... then saw mum!!! YIPPEE!!! yes!!! home sweet home!!!

we talked and talked until we reached home... YAY!!! amah!!! man, i missed her sooooooooooo much!!! i gave her a big bear hug...hahaha dinner's ready! warmed and delicious... i miss her cooking!!! walked up and down my home sweet home before finally taking a looooooong hot shower (man, it feels good to be back home) and settling down to eat!!! lolz amah sat down and accompanied me...then ahhh...nice comfortable bed!!! before that, i went to chit-chat with mum and dad for awhile and took back my me to you bear... they left my poor darling to collect dust and didn't even bother to give it an occassional hug...the poor thing...

next morning, i simply refuse to wake up...if it wasn't for my appointment with the chiropractor, i would have just kept on dreaming... lolz supposed to be out by 9 and reach before 10... lolz after my usual dwelling and touching the piano, my fam managed to get me out of the house by 9.20 and reached seagate with ample time to spare...my mum dropped me and sent my amah to my aunt's place to attend a wedding dinner... who said amahs can't have fun? i think she has a more active social life than me... *sigh* anyways, while waiting for the centre to open, i took a picture overlooking the sea and penang bridge though i think you can barely make out the outlines of the bright... so sue me for not having a proper camera...

then, off to the hairdresser...mum dropped me at 11 plus and went to the temple for dana...was there for like 4-5 hours...had to wait for my mum as well...she joined me later to perm her hair... lolz...here's my before and after picture...

my back feels so airy! hahaha if you get what i mean... then, went to check out my mum's boss hp...samsung SGH X820... didn't quite like it... thought it was a flip phone...long story... hahaha so, no new hp for me... okay... shopping or hanging out... mum was rather tired...so we went to visit my uncle instead... promised him that i would drop by and visit him when i'm back in penang... chitty-chat-chat till dinner time... had dinner nearby... then ended up at gembira cause my aunty was like, did you know that they are closing end of this month? lolz... i grabbed quite a handful of stuff... lolz didn't know that they had stuff that i wanted... anyways, decided to get my bus tickets... so we ended up in sg nibong...

schiesse!!! the ONLY tickets left for sunday for konsortium was 7/7.30AM! which means, out of home sweet home by 6.30AM?! that's just insane! lolz, i doubt i can even lift up one eyelid at that time...anyways, amah has this plan of cooking for me before me heading off to the land-of-not-nice-AND-exhorbitant-prices-food....there was no way mum's gonna let me sit any other buses...well, besides plusliner and nice... but i don't really like the drop-off area unless i have no choice (which was then!) ergo, there i was at the counter... plusliner only has 7am or 4pm bus... schiesse~! okay, only nice left! nice was like 58bucks!!! i finally relented with mum subsidising...only to be stuck there for more than an hour cause the damn system broke down!!! what's wrong with the system anyways? why can't it function normally when i'm around?

finally it went through but now the printer simply refuses to cooperate so i had a manual ticket... yay! out of the place!!! sent my aunt home, took some pictures in the garden on the swing, which i absolutely love and had sweet memories...then, headed to get my dvds only to be disappointed...the store wasn't opened... *sniff sniff* fine, off to fetch amah then! yippee!!! arrived back home rather late... 10plus... linger around...packed my stuff... gawd! i had to bring two extra bags! carried food, music notes and stuff... lolz i swear, the bigger bag i have, the more things i find to put in it... lolz it runs in the family... hahaha k, after playing the piano until 12am, packed, i retired to bed... switched off the lights BUT ended up yakking and giggling with amah until 3am!!! lolz we would have talked more if we hadn't laughed so much... it was good catching up with her... =D we talked about practically everything under the sun... (though i simply refuse to tell her how much i spent for my crowning glory, she would freak out and i made my mum promise not to tell her...lolz i just told my amah, you don't wanna know how much i paid...she was you sure...then looked at me and said, yeah, i probably won't want to know although her face shows absolute curiousity...mark my words, she'll find out sooner or later...she's that good...lolz)

was stirred up at 8 plus...9am...the next day...lazed around my bed before dragging myself up...took a bath and had another scrumptious lunch...10 dishes to finish!!! and that's without dessert!!! i love being at home! i couldn't even stuff in the nyonya kuih... *sniff sniff* so unfair... why can't the pos laju be laju-er?! *sob sob sob* anyways, mum was like shu ying, we are short of time...i uh huh and then ran to touch my piano before dad gave me the look and started to say something which i quickly replied, yeah, going now... then, put a sad face... lolz mum and dad managed to get me out by 10plus... that was not before i gave amah loads of big bear hugs and kisses... lolz...

arrived penang way before 11am cause dad suddenly decided not to use the ferry...darn! i could have spent that time with amah...lolz dad was a tad jealous... says he's not getting enough attention from me... lolz we ended up spending time at tesco where i bought a mag to accompany me during my lonely journey back to lonely kl...arrived at the terminal only to my utter delight to find out that i will be sitting in a double decker... lolz another long story... hugged and kissed goodbye to mum and dad and headed to my seat only to realise that i DON'T have a seat!!! but it was good...i actually ended up right in front... where i really wanted to be...when the guy sorted things out and asked me to change places... i politely asked him whether i could just stay where i was...he was cool about it... yay!!!

the first part of the journey was rather boring with only this to accompany me... so, after awhile i took out my darling, hugged it and went to oink oink comfortably... at least this time i know i would arrive safely...in one piece in kl... =P woke up at some stop... went to get my business done... when i headed back, i was like, ewww what's that smell? yuck!!! i checked my sandals, there was nothing there... okay...not me, maybe it's the lady two seats behind me since she went up the bus right after me... then i removed my jacket and darling out of the plastic bag i placed them in only to realise that schiesse! the damn water cup leaked and soaked my tuna sandwich! (sorry lady two seats behind me! hehehe) and even more gross, my darling's leg's all wet and smelly!!! it was soooo disgusting! i had to go down (again!) to get plastic bags...

it was rather a good call...ended up buying two packets of one of my favourite junk foods... would have bought more if i had more hands to carry it... lolz my poor darling spent the whole journey suffocating in the plastic bag... the poor thingy...

then, me and the gurl beside me just started talking and sharing food... man, she's interesting! she looks not a year older than 25 max but guess what, she's been working in public bank for 10 years already! heading to bangi for training to become management planner or sth...lolz me and my memory... anyways, we talked throughout the entire 2nd half of the journey (lolz i sound like i'm in a football game) we talked about her job, my course, her future, eating habits, food that we gobble down or gi tract, our lovely penang, her dislike just being in kl, camping, beaches, stars, books...

gosh! i didn't even know anybody who camp liked her! well, i do but her's is different and interesting! she told me about her camps in the jungle... and when she took a trip to pulau banting and just enjoyed herself... she's so lucky to have friends to accompany her to these planned/spontaneous campings! then, i told her about my visit to kuantan and how i absolutely loved the beaches over there... i can't believe i'm going to type this but i think i might have fallen in love with the beaches in kuantan... i know, i know...how could i?! i have lived and loved the beaches in penang for as long as i can remember... but the ones in kuantan are absolutely enchanting and breathtaking!!! too bad i didn't take any pictures!!! the beaches actually have a long stretch of soft sand...the waves were huge and captivating...makes you want to just jump in with your surf board and surf... and the shells over there are like WHOLE shells unlike the ones in penang where if you happen to find a whole complete shell, it's like your luckiest day!!! okay, maybe i am exaggerating a little but the beaches in penang wasn't like when i was small... i could remember digging for la-la and going swimming without rubbish floating all around me... it's in a sad state indeed... i wish penangnites would show more concern towards their beautiful beaches...appreciate nature more...penang is like heaven...we are the luckiest people...bountiful delicious food, surrounded by long stretches of beaches and sea, moderate living cost, loads of hills to hike, loads of ways to bond with mother nature, but what are we doing? throwing rubbish out of the windows of vehicles, into the sea, put of the apartments, practically anywhere you can think of except the rubbish bin...help save good old penang and let me love my beaches again! well, not that i don't love them anymore but i guess i'd prefer the ones in kuantan unless things start to change!!!

oh, and then we started talking about waterfalls!!! man, i can still imagine myself sitting at the sg panching waterfall in kuantan!!! it was the most beautiful waterfall i've ever seen... it even beat the one i went on the way to cameron highlands!!! the ambience, just soaking my leg in the cooling water and feeling the soft breeze and tiny droplets of water splashing on my face...it was like nothing else in the world matters...it felt so good...i wish i could go there again! *starting to dream* lolz maybe during my study break...to de-stress...lolz think i can find the time??? (highly unlikely) and then we started talking about the waterfall in penang and the miserable state it is now...i feel so sad... ='(

a little after 4, we reached ktm station in kl... we said our goodbyes and i took the underground tunnel to get to the other side and then flagged down a cab... was rather suspicious of the cab driver so i called my mum and gave her the taxi number and pretended that she was waiting for me at home... lolz... it turns out that he's a nice guy and i reached home safely... plus, i only paid 7 bucks!!! came back to realise that nobody's home... =( luckily i've made dinner plans if not i have to cook for myself... lolz since i still have time before heading for dinner, the first thing i did was switched on my comp, online and then MUSIC!!! lolz... after that, i slowly unpacked, soaked my dirty laundry, changed my bedsheet, pillow casessss, everything (so, i'm bedless tonight...okay, not really bedless since i still have my sleeping bag) took it down to the laundry shop only to realise that it's sunday and they are closed...cursed a lil then carried the truckload of laundry back up, rearranged my messy pile of music scores, spring cleaned a little and before i know it, it's already six something... man, time flies!!! showered and headed out...

darn! i think all my expenses this month goes to the lucky cab drivers...sat the lrt and went to tmn bahagia to pass emily something only to realise that i told her that i will meet her at kj lrt st!!! man, i'm getting old...chat with her while waiting for mun kiat to arrive... updated her about my life and she told me a little about hers...cause i was telling her about my latest problems and her giving me advice... she said i should start changing some of my "soft" habits... then, she drove me to the opposite side and before i left, we promised to keep in touch... lolz...

mk's hair's longer than mine!!! damn...hahaha anyways, we chatted on the way to dinner... i should remember to get the name of the band he was listening to...quite nice... schiesse! i should really improve my memory capabilities... drove to puchong to have japanese cuisine... man, i love the chawan mushi (quality's as good as the one in waka, rasa sayang hotel in penang!!! i miss going to waka!!! =( *sniff sniff*) and i really miss my raw salmonZ... the unagi sushi was not bad but the others were ok only... it was nice chatting and catching up with him... finished dinner about 10...

on the way back to my place, he ran over a dead animal...ewwwww! then, we were caught in an apparent traffic jam...which he first thought was a road block only to realise that it was an accident... the best part was the accident's not even on OUR side of the road... the amount of kaypo-ers was amazing...such a long stretch just to stretch your "giraffe" neck at the accident for 5 secs... *shakes head* then, when it came to our turn, man, it was cool! well, cool if nobody's hurt... there was this whole stretch of cars parked on the side of the road like nobody's business... then after a stretch, we saw a group of people and then, the car!!! you know the phrase drivers love to stick on their cars... you kiss,you pay and if you can read this, you should increase your distance or something? well, this car was kissing and practically underneath the other car... the "backside" of the front car was on top of the other car, touching the roof, if i'm not mistaken...maybe the driver was really reading the yellow sign and inched too near... *shrugs* oh and the vehicles was back-to-back for a long, long, long, long, long way... i felt bad cause mk still has to drive back and he has supper appointment with his gang... anyways, when we reached setapak, he stopped by shell (this time the one that's in service) and we went out to check his tyres for blood or brain splatter as he says... lolz sorry guys, there wasn't any... filled up petrol and then he dropped me... *hope he doesn't get stuck in the jam...*

okay...back and still no one at home (psst, it's 2.11am now and my housemate just got back...lolz out with her boyfriend...she's up to something, i'd bet...lolz she'd better not find her way to this blog or i'll end up cooking for a week! lolz i'm like the only one in my apartment that's single... =P) so, as i was saying...nobody's home...here i am blogging until now... lolz damn good way of spending my time, eh? lolz it's like 4.30am now... but overall, i had a fantastic time...plus, the feeling of being pampered to the core's just what i need to de-stress... =P

thoughts, thoughts, thoughts

2007-03-14T00:26:00.000+08:00

life is unpredictable...which is fine by me...since my life is already full of "unpredictablities"... don't get me wrong, i love and welcome challanges in life but sometimes when you keep trying...repeatedly trying to change the predicted consequences, you feel like you are stuck...confined to the world where invisible walls constrict your what seemed to be fruitless efforts... then, we start thinking what life is all about and what life has to offer us... what about what we have to offer to life? heck, i shall stop before i start jabbering, confusing the world, me included... lolz

oh, and i'm still procrastinating... i still have yet to set my priorities right... apparently, my priorities, at the moment, is house, prison break, movies, cooking, oinking, smsing, playing musical instruments and oh, and of course, blogging... anything except what i'm supposed to do...i have an assignment due friday on a famous dead microbiologist (which i still have yet to decided who the lucky guy is), test on nutrition, (what we eat, how to count the percentage of fat we have in our food, stuff like that) on friday too, and another assignment due early next week on homos...which would be really, really interesting if i didn't have to translate it into malay...

one thing i'm definitely looking forward though is going back to good old PENANG!!! hehehe i get to see my darling, my beaches (well, hopefully i have the time to drop by, feel the soft sand between my toes, feel the salty sea water splashing against my legs, rock-climb a bit, collect broken sea-shells and just feel the sea breeze against my face...i can almost feel it), keep up my doc appointment, catch up with a few friends, eat excellent nyonya food, being pampered to the core... okay... i have a feeling this weekend ain't gonna be enough...there are so many things to do...

dilemma over crowning glory

2007-03-11T12:10:00.000+08:00

okay...having dilemma right now... should i have a short hairdo or just plain leave it the way it is right now? i have like until friday to decide... i would really love a new style... i've already had something in my mind but my heart feels the ache of cutting it short...

oh, and btw, remember that i said i had an exam on monday... schieβe! which is tomorrow! argggghhh! and remember that i said i haven't touched a single page? well, guess what? i've made an improvement...so up to date, i've like managed to successfully progressed to.......the second page!!!! argh!!! how am i suppose to finish it by tomorrow?!?! ='(

still here...

2007-03-09T06:34:00.000+08:00

schiesse~! what on earth happened to my photos in friendster?!? ALL my photos are G-O-N-E!!! argh!!!! it's nearly 7 and i'm still awake... oh, man! guess i'll just have to pretend that i did not visit my friendster page and pretend everything's there until i find the time to figure what happened and probably, who did it... lolz which is probably like never... oh, and i haven't started studying yet... not good... sooooo not good....

life...

2007-03-09T03:38:00.000+08:00

darn! i should start getting my priorities right! i mean, what the hell am i doing awake at 3.38am?!? well, i know it's like the normal time for me but i'm supposed to be like studying... yeah "supposed"... i was supposed to start my microbiology assignment yesterday, finish it and i was supposed to start studying for my microb exam yest... i was supposed to study for it today and guess what? surprise, surprise, i haven't even started yet...

i came back at 6sth today... had time to laze around... finish watching happy feet (which reminds me that i really miss dancing!!! i miss the swirling, the synchronised movements, the performances, the anxieties, the thrill, and just the thought of not being able to dance makes me really depressed...lolz plus, i also miss the tangling of hands and feet and the confusion every single time i learn a new dance!!!) and prison break s2e19... and i even had the privilage to don a hydrating mask before heading to good old dreamland and dream about....... lolz housemate woke me up at 11plus...cooked dinner and then onlined all the way till now... so, so much for studying...

there's so much to do, so little time... so much passion to fulfill... so much left to figure out... so much left to understand...to love...to be happy...and contented...forgive and forget... there's a world out there to be explored... and all this to be done within A lifetime... seems impossible but i guess when you set your heart and mind to it, impossible is actually reachable... life is indeed unpredictable and as i would love to think it as, full of lovely surprises... i love surprises... :)

now, i shan't spoil this nice blogging about a "surprised" open book "quiz/exam(?)" i had during my tutorial class... i can't even finish 7 "short essay" questions within an hour so go figure about my mid-terms... this time however, since i've the "opportunity" of studying for my exams, at least (i had to stop here for a moment, there's like dog/cat fight outside my window! scary! i can't see them though, too damn dark but they are LOUD!!! eeek!) i know where to look for the answers, and even that, i can't finish scribbling!!! oh, btw it's by that lecturer i was nonchalantly talking about earlier on... okay, i'm starting already so i'd better stop...lolz

today's actually interesting...i had fun playing two piano duets with my music teacher! hahaha of course, mine wasn't perfect but hey, it's better than nothing... lolz and, i just couldn't help but cavil... i actually asked my piano teacher for a more difficult piece cause i was bored with mine and man, do i regret it! hahaha well, i'll regret it until i manage to conquer the piece, that is... dunno how long i'll take though... it looks scary but i guess if it has a nice tune, it's worth it... hahaha i definitely pity her cause she needs to stand my endless horrible tunes and mistakes till i get it right... though personally, i think she seems to be entertained by me... dunno if that's a good or bad thing *shrugs*

now, is love a good or bad thing? is being tortured to the soul and having your heart ripped to pieces part of the deal until your find the right one? and how would you know who the right one is? and if you are lucky enough to find the right one, how are they compatible? and what if the one is at the other end of the world... don't tell me that by chance that they are going to be accidentally bump together by fate... this is not serendipity... and what if the right one's there and you just don't know it... until it's too late? then what would be next step be? what is it about love that takes the breathe out of the ones who has the opportunity to experience it? we always dream about what we were exposed to especially those magical fate and faith stories...which i'm certain that they do happen in the real world, but DO they in OUR world? and then comes the other love... there's always this big question about what love is all about and how we often hurt the people we love the most... and it's ONLY in the movies that the true motives of our actions are revealed... or when we want them to "accidentally" fall upon the true motives of the actions that were done...the sacrifices that were made...

expectations are another thing to live up to... it is true that if we please everyone, we end up pleasing no one... but then, there's the question about who we are pleasing and what the consequences are... expectations to fulfill are those of ours, truly ours or of those around us? if we really ponder about it every single one of our expectations will end up revealing itself that their true progression will ultimately lead to the fulfillment of others... so, then what about us?

what has the world become to???

2007-02-28T23:45:00.001+08:00

I AM DAMN FRUSTRATED!!! whatever happens to all the good lecturers? and how on earth does one ACTUALLY qualifies to become a doctor? *no offense though to those who work their ass off for it and does actually qualify themselves and to be dedicated enough in their respective fields...kudos to you!

i mean how can you even wake up each day with a doctorate background and don't have the slightest idea what the hell you are talking about each day and can't even explain the facts properly? not to mention pronounce anything correctly...seriously, if i were to make recordings of the lecture (which perhaps i will, one of these days...when i'm not sleeping in class...whoops) and just listen to the lecture i would get negative marks!!! and no, i'm not exaggerating at all...i'll attach the lecture notes one of these days...argh!!! i'm supposed to be studying right now but i can't make head or tail of the notes and the sentences can be interpreted in both the positive and negative way...in the medical field, even the slightest error can cause a patient's life...maybe that's why they chose to become lecturers and not actual doctors...one really wonders how they managed to obtain their phDs...

i am currently calming myself now with classical music and then will try again to make sense of the absolutely nonsensical notes...

and feeling painful everytime i cough (it feels as though someone is scratching my throat as the wind passes through, out of my pharynx) with a slightly high temperature ain't helping my mood either...

***i guess most of the month's blog's just gonna be filled with my utter frustration...hopefully i can manage to squeeze in a couple of nice pleasing stories...it would certainly brighten up my day...***

***current update: clinical biochemistry has 7 "short essay questions" and goodness knows how many MCQs...***

***microbiology scheduled on next tuesday has been postponed to the monday, the week after...boy, am i glad! btw, this lecturer is one of the best i had...certain and confident***

***oh, and i've lost count on how saturated i am with vitamin Cs and water***

***i've also tried gargling with salt water and "breathing exercises"***

***any other suggestions???***

foul mood? better mood? or just simply confused???

2007-02-27T18:48:00.000+08:00

who says there is no such thingy as catching-up on lost sleep? believe me, there is! i slept for half a day yesterday and nearly missed my class today morning at 10am! so much for spending time studying my clinical biochemistry...and i'm never in the best mood if i was rudely awaken or even if i have to drag myself out of bed...to top it all, i think i'm not in the best of health...gobbled up 2000mg of vitamin C and 5 hacks already and goodness knows how many glasses of water (lolz those who know me well would be amazed by this fact and to those who barely know me, i barely even drink a glass of water on normal days unless it's my amah asking me too)

but besides the horrid mood, it did improve at some point of the day...or at least it did for like a few minutes...i had my unscheduled and impromtu piano lesson today...was supposed to be there to ask to re-reschedule my replacement class only to find out that i could replace it at 1230 before my next class...while waiting for my class, i took the initiative to hi-light my notes only (not study, mind you) only to be annoyed by my music teacher chanting that i would be sick and left some hilighted and pencil marks on MY NOTES (!!!) until i shooed him away!

then, 1230 came...since my music teacher was still engrossed with her student, i took the opportunity to bang some mindless out of beat beats on the drum...lolz it was fun! *grin* then, it was time, and since i came unprepared and without my scores, my piano teacher took advantage of the situtation, i had a grueling but fun (i can't believe i typed this out) time playing.......scales! all sorts of scales, white key scales (which was b-o-r-i-n-g *yawn*), arpeggios, broken chords, three-key thingy and the other thingy...she had me puzzled for awhile, i was staring at her when she started mentioning all these alien words to me until she showed me what it was! i did had fun though, tangling up my fingers and figuring out which fingers goes to which key...she knew i dislike scales, i mean, who doesn't??!? it's scales!!!! don't get me wrong, it's fun exploring it once in awhile but hey, i'm not going to take my piano exam anytime soon...i could swear she was trying to test my mental skills, whether i was able to recall something i've played like...let's see...9 years ago!!! schiesse! that's long! lolz

i think i'm going to saturate myself more with vitamin C today...hope it works...

*crossing my fingers, heart and whatever that can be crossed...neeeed desperately to get better in time for my exam... =P*

**i think my mood has improved...slightly...going to engross myself in eoin colfer's artemis fowl and the opal deception for awhile before "embracing" "hell"...**

frustrating

2007-02-26T18:32:00.000+08:00

ahhh! finally, i've reached modern civilisation...lolz...okay, latest update, i sooo totally screwed up my endocrinology test last two weeks ago and it was an open book test!!! and believe me, open book test ain't that easy, especially if you have absolutely not the faintest idea where to look!!! plus, how on earth are we suppose to answer 13 "short essay" questions in, like, an hour? seriously, sometimes i think the lecturers feel that we have bionic hands...i have my clinical biochemistry mid-term exam this thurs and apparently, yes apparently only because NO ONE can confirm anything, one lecturer is setting 3 "short essay" questions, 1 of it is a case study, another one supposedly setting ANOTHER 3 "short essay" questions with 1 case study as well but latest info is that it was all changed to MCQs with negative marking system (awfully puzzled but frankly, i think i prefer the supposedly short essay questions) which i doubt there will be only 3 MCQs only, and another is setting 5 "short essay" questions...all in ONE HOUR!!! so, let's see if all these have not failed to tangled up the wires in my head, that's a total of 11 "short essay" questions!!! oh and if you are wondering why i'm typing one lecturer here and another lecturer there, no, i'm not insane yet...braise (sorry, brace) yourself, i have a total of FIVE lecturers for this subject... it's muddling...the only reason i could think of (the only good reason against a zillion horrid reasons) is that they are placing each lecturer whom are specialised in their own specific fields so that we get the best among the best...talking about exams, i'd better get back to my world full of confusion and baffling notes...i'll try to write as often as i can now...looks like i no longer have any excuses not to blog anymore... :P actually i do...check out my indubitably insane schedule below...

a view of my march calender:
1 march : clinical biochem
3 march : management principle
6 march : microbiology
7 march : endocrinology
9 march : management principle ass
16 march : principles of nutrition
: microbiology ass
22 march : pendidikan moral (yes, i'm "politely" obliged to take it)
28 march : endocrinology (again!)

april
5 april : clinical biochemistry (again)
9 april : clinical biochemistry dry lab test

plus a 9am-5pm (except on thurs 9am-6pm) daily time table!!!

*flush!* there goes my social life!

*** the photo was taken in hilton, kl last friday after my lovely time spent in the swimming pool and steam room (my version of heaven plus relaxation), spent a day there and then, went to le meridian only to be sooo thoroughly disappointed that i didn't bother staying over any longer...hilton's the best so far for this year... =) and during my stay, i found my favourite perfume haven, annick goutal!!!***

H-E-L-P!!!

2006-06-09T13:19:00.000+08:00

after swimming through a million papers in my room as well as in uni, i've finally found a very small space in my schedule to fit in time to write in my blog... gosh! talking about swimming, i still have like 2 lab reports, 1 full tutorial question paper and 2 major ass to finish... the first three to be done by 1.30pm and it's like 1.19pm... so, the hell am i doing here?!? i'm going insane soon and it's only three weeks since uni started... lecturers have spoken greek, french plus various alien languages that i've lost count... (not to mention the hundreds of slides!!!) the incapability of certain lecturers doesn't help in my case either... hahaha i'm going to ramble, grumble, whatever too much... shit! i need to get back to researching... i'll "flirt" on later... ciao!

updating

2006-05-12T17:01:00.000+08:00

hahaha here i am... back again...after months and months... obviously it kinda slipped out from my mind that i have a blog... lol that's me! *grin* anyway, i've managed to finish my diploma and now i'm going to start my degree (finally!!!) hahaha i wonder how's uni life like... i bet it's going to be crazier then my colleg life!!! with 6 subjects per semester (hmmm...) do pray for me... lol life's great... i'm learning how to cook and make drinks... basically, enjoying life... well, i guess till next week when hell breaks loose in uni...

oh, here are some pics that i took 3 days ago in klcc concourse... if you are free, head down there to vote for me ya? ;p it's till 19th may...

what a week (to come)!!!

2005-11-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

lazy piggy's back again... hahaha getting very lazy these dayzzzzz..... it's raining outside... i should be dreaming away... anyways, my handphone went on strike so i'm now phoneless!!!! help!!! i miss sms-ing!!! i miss chatting!!! where did my life go?!? *sniff sniff* talking about life... exams next week... 18 chemistry, 19 (yes! a saturday!!! and can you believe it? in the morning!?!) biology, 21 (thank goodness they were merciful enough to let us rest on sunday) maths... still don't know when's business though... hahaha i should probably go check it out, shouldn't i? maybe later... lol... too darn lazy... *wink* i'm still stuck in college as it's the only place i know so far that has FREE wireless area... hahaha a little too lazy to search around.. maybe soon... perhaps after my long and peaceful beauty sleep... work loads are stacking up like mad! doing those statistical thingy's in maths today... the lecturer was explaining something about before the product is being serviced, another product waits to be service and another and another and another... before the first one is even done! sounds soooooo familiar... going to take a "stroll" to the lrt before sitting an hour's long journey to get back home... and when i reach, i have another 10 mins walk... how i seriously long for my bed man!!! i'm waiting for someone to come online but till now... no sign... :( starting my journey back now... pray it doesn't rain!!!

embarassing moment! ! !

2005-07-30T00:58:00.000+08:00

=( today after my bio tutorial, i have a freaking long three hours break... i was too lazy to drag myself all the way to the canteen which was like a block away so i decided to stay at the very block i'm in... such a wise choice... my bio tutorial's like on the ground floor and my next class in on the third floor so i thought why not just drop by the third floor straight away to rest my big heavy butt there... so i went up... if my memory serves me right, last week (an hour later) the class was supposedly empty and i did my work there before i fell asleep... hehehe as usual! so, today i settled down there... happily taking out my chem book when a girl came in... so i was like, hmmmm... is there a class? she said no... so i didn't bother her and continued with my stuff... then out of a sudden, a few minutes later, a bunch of guys came in... and then again another group... time for me to remove myself from the class... too many people and i was afraid they might be having a class after all... so i packed my bags and went to the next class, right behind the one i was in... there was a girl there... i asked the same question again and she said no so ok lar... so i went to the back of the class and happily settled myself there (again!) hehehe and i looked at her to get some kind of confirmation that the class's mine (and hers) which i did cause she started opening her delicious packet of mee and ate it... then when i was taking out my mp3 player to listen to my songs, this bunch of loud guys came walking in... so much for solitude... i just ignored them and continued studying my chem... then one by one the students begin coming in... i have no idea why, but i stayed in the class... i read till my brain told me its time for me to visit dreamland... so i packed my books nicely and lie on my table and off to dreamland i went... (don't ask me how long i slept...) lol... in the mist of my sweet dreams, which i can barely recall, i heard this sharp, loud and clear lady's voice... i opened my eyes a bit and decided to ignore it... it was all quiet except for that lady's voice but i didn't really take notice about it... then, out of the blue, my eyes went like 'b-l-i-n-k' wide open and sat up straight! my goodness! the sight i saw wasn't pleasant at all... there was this dark green suit lady lecturer in front explaining some stuff (goodness knows what) and everybody (the students) were sitting neatly (unlike before) and straight up paying attention to her!!! i was the only one, bending down snoring like a fat lil piggy away... damn right you are! oh oh! i was like crap! she didn't quite noticed that i had woke up until i kinda like stared at her... so she said, are you one of my students? i meekly said no... (thank goodness no one turned behind and gave me those funny looks, or maybe cause they already knew that i was there) and then continued by saying, you fell asleep there??? i just nodded... then, she continued teaching her class! hahaha i became blur and suddenly couldn't decide what to do... whether i should just stay in her class or cabut... finally, after a few dreading moments, my thoughts and probably my brain recollected itself and i just took my bag and shyly tapped her shoulders and said sorry before i left! so damn embarassing!!! then after i left, i just sat down at the chair outside trying to decide where to go... after goodness knows how long, i just started walking... i saw a few empty classroom but you can bet i daren't step into it... i still have like one to one and a half more hours to go... in the end, i dragged myself to the canteen... hahaha so much for trying to stay away from the canteen... lesson to be learnt : never sleep in an empty classroom... collect your mind faster and think of something to get you away from being embarassed... well, take care! i'm going for my "next class" now... tehehe

a lil too busy

2005-07-22T19:55:00.000+08:00

hehehe i'm back! or at least for the moment~! trying to keep you updated with my rather hectic life... for those who know me well, well, hahaha yes, you've guess right! ;) i've completely forgotten the existance of this blog till bren reminded me about it... hahaha typical old forgetful shu ying... yupz yupz yupz, that's me~! *grin* am currrently furthering my studies in tar college kl... bio chem dip... rushed like mad to coll today just to realize that i din't make it for the two hours class coz our lect released us half an hour earlier... why can't she do that for the past few weeks i was attending the class... talk about crappy! but, i was extremely late anyway... hehehe i'm going to end up late if i don't remove my heavy butt from my computer seat soon... hehehe i'll update some other time then, i guess... =P

silly blur piggy!

2005-04-22T11:13:00.000+08:00

hahaha talk about silly!!! i went to gurney today with my girl friends to see guang liang... hahaha can you imagine i actually brought my digital camera with empty batteries inside and no extra batteries in hand?!?! and to think that i've actually bothered to recharge 4 extra batteries the night before but forgotten to bring it along!!!! total crap! and i didn't even realize about it until i arrived in gurney!!! hahaha probably most of you out there will be thinking typical blur piggy!!! lol guang liang proved himself a true singer and composer... lurve his songs and his voice... very nice and soothing... and i did managed to get his autograph on the cd.....for liu yih... lol yeah, i haven't bought an original cd for a long, long time... i guess i still prefer to spend that same amount of money on books... *grin* went to watch sahara after that... rather an okay movie and quite hilarious, i should say... sorry ya, liu yih! didn't manage to take any pics for you... =P

hmmm... guess what? i actually managed to wake up in time to go to gurney today!!! slept at six something am, after having a tasty and filling ayam murtabak with kopi-o-peng in kayu at 4am!!! *slurp slurp* lol woke up with lest than two hours to prepare... i managed to watch stepping stone and half of mi gorda bella!!! *grin* though i miss fate twisters, greed mask and love in the city... *sob sob sob* yesterday's thursday right? so, i miss fear factor couples too! :(

new look?!

2005-04-18T12:20:00.000+08:00

*muarkz* hahaha went to reshape my hair... kekeke looks much much better now although it's super super super short... *grin* the guys still think i look better in long hair... i thought it was time to change a bit... got a lil bored and tot doing a lil change with my hair would add a lil "fun" into my life... lol not that i'm not having fun lar... you know what i mean? =P anyway, who wouldn't be bored??? imagine 5 months of rest and relax!!! i'm officially a couch potato d lar... hehehe the lil fat piggy... oink oink! *grin* hehehe i successfully composed the chorus part for 'tong hua' by guang liang... lol though the left hand part's still a bit cacat lar... but not bad for a beginner with not really good skills in piano... kekeke kinda cool actually... couldn't compose all cause i don't have the full song... lol was trying to recall from memory with the help of my polyphonic ringing tone... pretty cool, eh? *grin*

yeah, and i'm still awake at 4am... i'm a vampire piggy... i oink oink when people are up and about and wake when everybody's oink oinking... hehehe i lurrve my life!!! *wink wink wink*

so much for a new look!

2005-04-17T12:14:00.000+08:00

ARGH! help! i just went to my hairdresser to have a new hairdo... it still doesn't make sense... how can i look okay in the mirror at the hairdresser's place but look absolutely horrible when i view myself again at home?!?! i mean it! i swear they have the magic to make you feel amazing, the mirrors there, i mean... total crap man! I AM NOT GOING OUT FOR A MONTH!!! hehehe don't you guys even dare or bother to ask me to take my own photo to show you guys... crap ler... why does guang liang ad lee-hom have to be down this week??? *sigh* tremendously awful!!! help!!!! out of a sudden, i have sooo much things to do after my new hairdo... *sob sob sob* i'm going to wear a bandanna for a month, maybe two!!! :'( i don't know... damn sad ler... hahaha

to all the babes and dudes in pg, please try not to ask me out this month... if you must then you must promise not to end up rolling on the floor in fits!!! *grin*

eeek!

2005-03-29T08:17:00.000+08:00

while picking up my white thread to sew my princess's wedding dress (am doing d cross-stitch which i'm supposed to finish like ages ago), the ground beneath me shook, the walls vibrated and my furnitures rock and roll... i look up and just shrugged it away.. i must be dreaming... it's 12.13am... an obvious hint that it's time for me to oink oink!!! so, i stood up... then, i felt it again!!! am i still dreaming??? hmmm... i stood there wondering... everybody's sleeping like a baby... i MUST be dreaming!!! then, i checked my amah's bedroom... she's not awake... so i must be dreaming... (she felt the earthquake last time! and many a time before!!! eeek!) then, i shook my head and sat down on my computer chair... it happened again! i woke my daddy up and he felt it too! HA! i'm not halucinating! it ended around 12.15am... i continued my work, thinking it shouldn't be that bad until my aunty calls 20 minutes later and informed me that people were running out of the apartment!!! freaky man! i just hope and pray that it will not trigger another tsunami or cause any huge devastation to mankind...

this is edited from the cnn...
http://earthquake.usgs.gov/recenteqsww/Maps/10/100_0.html
mag 8.2 on 2005/03/29 at 00:09:37 on latitude 2.093 and longitude 97.016 at depth of 30.0 in NORTHERN SUMATRA, INDONESIA

check out this sites, ppl
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/asia-pacific/4388579.stm
http://earthquake.usgs.gov/recenteqsww/Quakes/usweax.htm
http://www.cnn.com/

will update soon... till then, take care ya!

wonderful day! =)

2005-03-24T07:58:00.000+08:00

today was lovely! le called me... tot he forgotten my bday d... very happy!!! everybody remembered! lol hehehe i had the chance to listen to drowning by bsb and one sweet day by mariah carey and boyz II men on radio...(nearly back to back) talk about perfect timing!!! =) my two favourite songs!!! hehehe i love my day! *grin* then, i got my wish and had a visit to the beach... get to play piano... the most beautiful day i've ever had... =))) thankzzzzz! now, i'm pretty tired so wanna oink oink d... will be dreaming of sweet sweet dreams!

MY BIRTHDAY ! ! !

2005-03-23T09:06:00.000+08:00

*mmmmmmmuarkz*

am very happy! today's my birthday! got so many wishes! hehehe best pressies of all! i don't need presents just people wishing me is more than enough! hehehe it's the thought that matters! really appreciate you guys out there for remembering my bday! pi sent me a card!!! yay! thanks!!! am so happy! *grin* you guys are the best!

loadz of hugs, love and kisses!

thanks for everything!

results are out!

2005-03-15T11:56:00.000+08:00

YIPPEE! YIPPEE? think again! now, i have more things to worry about... so much for sleeping tight after today... fat chance man! started applying for uni(s) already and the application fees itself (ONLY APPLI FEES!!!) are enough to kill me d... super cut throat people... aimst is like starting it's course in march/april... that's like about 3 months earlier than any other uni(s)! argh! i mean, what happens if i get offered to another uni? i would waste my money over there and it's freaking expensive... horrible! i can't stand it anymore, my head's spinning round and round with birds chriping loudly away already so i'm going to make a date with mr.sandman and turn the lights off... sweet dreams!

praying...

2005-03-14T18:42:00.000+08:00

praying

okay... this is scary! it's like waiting for the ending... but it's just the beginning!!! oh, man... my heart's beating so fast, it feels like it might jump out! i pray that everything comes out alright! just wanna thank everybody for their support and faith in me... thanks! love ya all!

*huggy hugz*

*muarkz*

hey hey hey!

2005-03-14T11:00:00.000+08:00

first!!! yeah!

wish me luck ya? *grin*

S-C-A-R-Y !

2005-03-14T10:29:00.000+08:00

i went to kl on friday and now i'm back in penang! =P i think i spent most of my time on the road... *grin* so much for a vacation in kl... kekeke

i had a freaky moment today... it was raining heavily when i was waiting for my bus to arrive from johor bahru... pitter patter pitter patter... i waited for like about an hour before the bus finally arrive and i took a bag and guided my amah to the bus first... as i stepped down from the bus, a motorcycle came out from nowhere on the pedestrian path and hit me!!! this is the amazing part! i don't know what happened or how i did it but i managed to avoid the motorcycle! hahaha i think i must have been watching too much dark angel! thank you, jessica alba... *grin* anyways, i lost my balance and need to fall somewhere... this part happens so slow that i can still remember me hestitating and thinking about where to fall so that i won't hurt myself! weird isn't it? and kinda cool too, come to think of it... as it was raining heavily and the pedestrian path was wet, i didn't want to fall over it so i decided to fall on top of the bike... (thank goodness i noticed that the wheels have stop spinning before falling on top of it!!!) i escaped with just a lil hurt on my finger and dirt wheel marks on my brand new vincci slippers... LOL another amazing thing was neither one of us (me or the crappy malay guy) uttered a single word! (you know what i mean) i kept staring at him... i was afraid he was hurt! hahaha you must think i was crazy... here i am being hit but i'm actually worried about the other guy, who ran over me, getting hurt! sometimes, i think i amazed myself... i've got a great deal of on-lookers... so, anyway, i just stood up and walked away, and continued carrying my excess luggage... thank goodness my amah didn't see the whole incident or she would have been more worried... i did tell her about it later and se got kinda freaked out... =P
this is freaky... my stpm results are coming out in about... 6 hours time... argh! help! i'm very, very, very, very, very sleepy but i can't sleep!
blood pressure: increase
heart rate: increase
tension level: increase
stress level: max
worried level: max
anxious level: max
freaked out level: max
do wish me luck and pray for me ya?
*muarkz*

music of my heart

2005-03-11T00:54:00.000+08:00

me = darling! ;)

Music of My Heart's really an amazing show that touches the heart of musicians and also non-musicians... it's been a long time since i've listened to really good music... it's the feeling that when you close your eyes, you can still imagine that it's there... no darkness in front of you but notes from the soul that lifts you up again and again... it's the feeling that no other things could bring to you except music and music alone... that's the magic of music... how i miss music and my piano... i've not practice in ages and it breaks my heart that it's distance that separates me and my piano... ahh... the joy when i can just touch and play the piano! maybe i can't play that well, but hey, it's the music that counts and i believe with practice any music will sound good whether you know how to play or not... i used to read enid blyton's book (that's right! enid blyton...) that you can express your emotions, let it be joy or sadness or anger or anything as a matter of fact, by just letting it flow with the sound of music and you'll find all your negative feelings just fade away with a smile on your face by the end of the music or your joy heightens with each musical note you play... each and every person has a talent... i believe everybody is gifted, no matter who you are... if only they take a moment in their life to notice it i'm sure they'll shine like stars in the sky! stars shine when night falls but they don't fade away when daylight takes over, they just shine so much ad with the other stars, they combine effort and make the world a brighter place! don't you think so? *grin* so shouldn't each of us discover ourselves, make an effort and join hearts to make ourselves talented?

feeling flirtatious

2005-03-10T13:38:00.000+08:00

smiley

time to change! don't you just love the purple color? *grin* it's still a bit messy... i'll trim it up soon...

... continued

2005-03-09T10:39:00.000+08:00

took a few days off... was kinda busy... hehehe met up with some friends to catch up on good ole times... anyways, kl was great! watch movies, played snooker/pool (to think that since i've played the game i would bother to remember which was which but as usual, it slips from my mind...), hang out with friends, chill out with cuz, had fun with my leng chai(s) n amah (yay!), watch loads and loads of tv, oink oink and um-um a lot... hahaha add on some weight dee... hmmm... before you know it, i might not even pass through the door! (though i doubt that would happen but with such good food and life, who knows?) *shrugz* still, with all that, i'm having sleepless nights! yupz, me! amazing, huh? guess how it started? qoute bren, "pre-mature worry!" lol scared, freaked out, worried, stress... you just name it! i probably have experience most of it... hahaha which is probably one of the reasons why i'm still online at this crazy hour and will probably will for the next few hours... *grin* i want the results to come out soon and yet i also refuse to acknowledge the untimely arrival my results! i'm not making any sense am i? well, for those who know me well enough knows and understand what i'm talking about... hahaha well, i hope so... hehehe

awful journey back from kl

2005-03-06T10:34:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey! i'm back from kl! yippee! i miss good ole penang! hehehe the beaches, the sea, the food (actually not really coz my aunt cooks absolutely fantastic nyonya food! *grin*), my computer... hehehe n loadz more... took a bus home... horrible service!!! got delayed for about 2 hours then the air-cond turned HOT-cond on a freakingly hot day!!! so instead of reaching at 1500... i arrived at 1800... i'm never sitting nice bus again unless they change the management...
kl was fantastic... my leng chai's never fail to win my heart with their endless love and humor... i miss them already... i miss my amah too... *grin* can't wait to go back to kl too... hehehe

to be coloured later... need my beauty oinks...

Gong Xi Fatt Chai!!!

2005-02-09T21:18:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! first day of chinese new year! whoooppeeee! kekeke was watching a marvelous display of fireworks since last night! *grin* one of my favourite things (humming)... actually, it's still firing away! a beautiful, colorful, fantastic way to celebrate CNY! kekeke i LOVE fireworks!!! it's a seductive way to express your joy, love and happiness! *grin* *hint hint hint* kekeke brand new day tomorrow... so i'd better cultivate a new oinking habit! so, auf wiedersehen for now! *huggy hugz* loads of love, hugs and kises and HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

to all me frens out there...

~ Wishing You A Seductive And Horny Chinese New Year Licked by Love And Penetrated By Heavenly Graces And May All Your Misfortunes Be Ejaculated Before The Season Has Climaxed! ~

penang: land of fantastic food!

2005-02-07T11:40:00.000+08:00

gosssssh! i am so full now! i went snooker-ing (or was it pool, i played?) *shrugz* just now... hahaha i keep hitting the air! *grin* i even gave the balls a scare and cause them to jump up before rolling away... kekeke was interesting... had good laughs... we played and played and finally decided to ignore the marks board... yupz, we were definitely all beginners... well, except one lar... if not, we'll be lost... thank goodness we went there around 12... not that embarassing! kinda had the whole place to ourselves... pretty cool, come to think of it... hehehe actually, not bad for beginners cause i actually snookered (or "pooled"?) some balls in the holes! yippee! hahaha we stayed there till they tutup kedai... *grin* headed down to um-um nasi lemak! yum! yum! now, i'm soooo full.. i can't oink... but, it was delicious! will definitely recommend it to nasi lemak lovers out there... like myself!

ZZZzzzzz

2005-02-07T03:25:00.000+08:00

what an exhausting week! having sleepless nights! i mean, it's me here and i oink anywhere and anytime... what's wrong with me? *sigh* too much worrying, i guess... been sleeping at 5am these days... doing absolutely nothing! crazy! definitely nuts! i need retail therapy!!! kekeke anyways, new year's coming! yippee! can't wait for it to arrive... those amazingly delicious steamboat on new year's eve, gamble a lil (well, it's the only time i'm allowed to gamble), have loadz and loadz of fun... but, this year, my new year's celebration in penang gonna be a short one as i'm heading down to kl to see my two leng chai... kekeke gonna cut this short... still trying to figure out how this works... yupz, definitely computer illiterate... *sigh*

*muarkz*